Thursday, November 13, 2008

"My God, in Him I will trust"

So I flew into Seattle yesterday (Thursday) and saw the pediatric Neurologist today. I got the worse news possible: "Your son has a low grade glioma" which in layman terms, he has a tumor, but if it were to any type of tumor, this is the one that you would want.

We are off to Childrens Hospital of Seattle to see a Neurosurgeon tomorrow and talk about what our plan is from here. It still could be something just super tiny that he will have for the rest of his life - or could be something horrible that I am not quite ready to grasp yet. As of right now I am a mess. I am keeping strong and trying not to let my mind wander and cry every time he says something cute or even enters the room.

Right now I am just thinking why me, why did God choose Ian to go through this. Why did God choose this time in my life to present this with Jeff deployed and a house in AK with 2 dogs and a 15 month old. What is his ultimate goal? What am I learning from this? How is this supposed to make me stronger?

My mom sent me this bible verse and I am clinging onto it for dear life! Psalm 91, verse 2, "I will say of the Lord, "He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust."

5 comments:

The Dunns said...

Kristin, I'm so sorry. I will be praying for peace and rest for both of you while you are there and that you will get the absolutely best specialists and nurses and techs and everyone!

Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you here.

Here's another one for you (and one of my favorites): "The Lord is my refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." Psalm 46:1

Blessings!

The Beans said...

I am so sorry this is happening to you at this time. It's a great scripture and I know God has a plan for each of His children. Trust in Him, He will guide you and comfort you. I'll keep Ian in my prayers as well. Keep us posted!

The Beans said...

I am so sorry this is happening to you at this time. It's a great scripture and I know God has a plan for each of His children. Trust in Him, He will guide you and comfort you. I'll keep Ian in my prayers as well. Keep us posted!

D'anna Russell said...

Kristin:
I an a friend of Ashley Washington and she has called upon her sassygal following to pray for you. Just whanted you to know that we have started praying for your family and your little boy. Remember God puts nothing on us that we can not handle but we wonder sometimes about his timing or how he possibly thinks our load needs anymore weight. God Bless you and keep and we pray for the healing of this tumor.
D'anna Russell
Matador Texas

lorzdarln said...

God bless you! You are in my prayers....may he lif your Ian up and hold you and your family close to him in this time of trouble!!